Couldn't have him...

He came to me,
I was attracted towards him,
He created in me, a feeling for him.
But, he was very far.
He wanted me to stuggle to have him.

I got the clue.
I worked hard.
I thought of him all day and night.
I gave him all that he asked for.
I sacrificed my smile and gave them to him.
I prayed for him and I worshiped him.
He promised me to stay with me forever.

Finally, I was near him.
I wanted to embrace him.
He smiled at me and summoned me.
The moment I ran towards him,
And wanted to embrace him,
He turned his back towards me,
And walked away without even caring to turn back,
And look at me if I was fine or I was weepy.
I lost him or may be i never had him only so that I could lose him.
                                                                                                   - Somya Mishra

BYGONE MEMORIES

I am having my holidays now and I am feeling lonely. All my friends are busy with their own acquaintances and I have got nothing to do. I have been trying out different things but I am still lonely.
I do not cry , but tears roll down my eyes. They try to tell me something. It happens when I miss my childhood and my earlier holidays where I used to enjoy a lot. Each drop of tear bring down a moment and rolls down. It says,"Its gone. You have to create new precious moments now. People have their own priorities other than you." I feel so weepy, but that is true. I remember those moments when I used to spend a lot of time with my cousins. Everybody has got a very busy life now. Why can't I just re-live those moments?
At times, I smile at myself because of such memories. It seems what an Idiot I was. I still do such silly activities, but years ago, it was worth laughing.
I don't get to see a few of them now and some are gone. They will not come back even if i try to get them back. I can just hope for a miracle or something which can get me those people back and allow me to relive those memories.

ITS CHANGING THE STATE OF OCCURRENCE..

If I consider this first year life at NLUO as a vessel, then now things are gradually getting vapourised. When I entered this place, it was difficult to select elements which will fill up my vessel. As time passed by, i started filling elements into my vessel without even setting up a criteria for selecting them. Slowly, I started finding out how each element differentiated from the other.

Some solid elements vapourised in a very short span of time and went away to form their own vessels elsewhere. Some other solid elements turned out to be a pain and torture. These elements have become liquid, but I don't want to let them get vapourised completely as they have taught me how badly life can treat you at times. Some elements appeared to be so confused with their movements. Throughout the year, they did not know which side to go. All they have been doing is suppressing their actual emotions and depicting a "GOODY-GOODY" image. Well! That didn't work actually. Those elements have already lost their essence within this year.

Some elements entered the vessel and then left it according to their own comfort. They did not even care to think about the blank places which they left behind. I don't know if these blank places will ever be filled again, but I hope these elements get their deserving places and do not come back to ask for a little place after they are completely evaporated from my vessel.

Some solid elements are still in their solid state and I feel like covering my vessel with the lid now. I don't want to let these elements go. Some memories have vapourised already, but the elements together will successfully create fresh memories again. I believe. I would prefer to name these elements as "MADDIE BUDDIES". These elements have shown a lot of madness and have tolerated my madness too. They have also helped me get over a few settled sediments which were driving me mad day by day. They have shown me almost all ways to smile even when I'm stuck up with a depressing life full of classes, studies, cases, projects and the monsters creating them. They have made my life HELL. HELL because that place is so very full of laughter, noises and fire unlike HEAVEN where things are so silent and boring. I love this HELL of mine and hope to live in it all through my life before the arrival of the judgement day.

Now, my vessel is partially filled with these selected good elements and the devilish half-vapourised elements which will soon disappear.

                                                                                                             -Somya Mishra

SKETCHES...

colours can create miracles...

a simple imagination...

my masterpiece

THATS HER LIFE...

With a girl in some corner
Of this whole world,
There remains a story
Till today untold.

Quite happy, quite jolly,
She freaks around.
She never gets noticed
Within a huge crowd.

She was too talented,
But, she didn't gain fame.
She was pure-hearted,
Although few knew her name.

She loved herself.
She loved her friends.
She was never attracted,
By frequently changing trends.

She neither quarreled with her friends,
Nor did create a scene on stage.
But she could mash the earth hard,
To protect her own image.

she was very naughty,
And she really spoke a lot.
Her parents believed that,
Their emotions won't be hurt.

She can never afford,
To lose a good friend.
When this breaks her heart,
Its not easy for one to mend.

There was one thing in her life
Which she always kept unsaid.
There was someone in her heart,
for whom she could even lie dead.

She knew her dreams were hopeless.
For this she wept and cried.
She could never express her feelings,
However hard she tried.

She lived her life for others.
Her own joys were all buried.
She never let others know.
For her sorrows, her face was the lid.

Her face was not attractive,
But still her friends would say,
Her smile was very expensive.
Worth a million dollars to pay.
                                               -Somya Mishra